I'm naturally healthy and resilient, but I've lived very unhealthily.
I had a very stressful childhood (from the age of eight), ate fast food until I felt terrible (for instance, three big macs) several times a week for years (I got used to it and felt better after a year), have had a near-lethal encounter with e.coli, been dropped in a way that nearly destroyed my liver or something around there when I was 9, have spent some time outside (but have gone months without really being outside in a significant way), spend most of my time in a cold basement, currently no exercise, reached stage 6, nearly 7 of SpunkySkunk347's amphetamine abuse scale (with marijuana abuse), am rarely with people, especially of my age, and my skin seems to be deteriorating. While I'm a bit better now, yesterday my hands became blotched, a bit blue, wrinkly, and very strange, while veins underneath my skin became visible all over my arm and there was blue around my joints. I couldn't masturbate either, as my penis was sensitive to nothing but pain when touched.
I've been experiencing chest pain (around my heart) a few times a day, lasting about a minute, as well. Fuck, I'm unhealthy at 16, I'm going to die if I don't become healthier. I ingested a lot of dextroamphetamine that day and was pretty sleep-deprived, but I didn't even get high on the dex, and that must've had something to do with my skin. And the day before, I turned my mind off and decided to eat and snort a total of close to 50 weak tablets of various drugs, which got me less high than a few bowls of good weed would. It was the first time I got properly high on dex (which I did way before the others), first time I tried valium (20mg), and the first time I tried a bunch of other drugs.
What does it mean when my skin is deteriorating like this? I'm just happy that it's better now, but unfortunately not healthy-looking.
I had a very stressful childhood (from the age of eight), ate fast food until I felt terrible (for instance, three big macs) several times a week for years (I got used to it and felt better after a year), have had a near-lethal encounter with e.coli, been dropped in a way that nearly destroyed my liver or something around there when I was 9, have spent some time outside (but have gone months without really being outside in a significant way), spend most of my time in a cold basement, currently no exercise, reached stage 6, nearly 7 of SpunkySkunk347's amphetamine abuse scale (with marijuana abuse), am rarely with people, especially of my age, and my skin seems to be deteriorating. While I'm a bit better now, yesterday my hands became blotched, a bit blue, wrinkly, and very strange, while veins underneath my skin became visible all over my arm and there was blue around my joints. I couldn't masturbate either, as my penis was sensitive to nothing but pain when touched.
I've been experiencing chest pain (around my heart) a few times a day, lasting about a minute, as well. Fuck, I'm unhealthy at 16, I'm going to die if I don't become healthier. I ingested a lot of dextroamphetamine that day and was pretty sleep-deprived, but I didn't even get high on the dex, and that must've had something to do with my skin. And the day before, I turned my mind off and decided to eat and snort a total of close to 50 weak tablets of various drugs, which got me less high than a few bowls of good weed would. It was the first time I got properly high on dex (which I did way before the others), first time I tried valium (20mg), and the first time I tried a bunch of other drugs.
What does it mean when my skin is deteriorating like this? I'm just happy that it's better now, but unfortunately not healthy-looking.